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[Jan. 12th, 2004|03:39 pm] |
There's really not a whole lot going on, but it had been awhile since I'd updated so figured I was due.
School is back in session. It's not that bad. I feel refreshed from the break and ready to tackle this semester. My classes aren't too bad and I don't have any asshole professors like last semester. So I'm feeling good about it.
I met a guy that's pretty cool. We've been out a few times and things are looking somewhat promising. I'm so preoccupied with everything else right now that I'm probably not the best date. But he's cute and funny so it's all good. I'm happy hanging out with him right now and whatever happens, happens.
Really, that's it. The same old stuff, just a different day really. |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2004|01:07 pm] |
The people in the apartment next to mine are having sex. It's actually quite disturbing.
For one, they're older. Now I'm not so naive to think that older people don't have sex, but it is kind of gross to think about. They're like 40. That's like my parents having sex which is a really nasty visual and now I need to go gauge out my eyes and scramble the part of my brain that stores memories.
Two, these people are not very attractive. He is at least 300lbs and always has food on his face. ALWAYS. She is skinny but looks like a Jerry Springer crack whore. You know the kind I'm talking about.
Three, she's barking and they're talking dirty. Combined with the above reasons, this is just sick and wrong.
Anyway, New Years rocked. Went to a few parties with some friends, hung out, had a few drinks, had a good time. Not a whole lot outside of the norm to talk about. I did what millions of other people did so it's not that exciting to talk about. |
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[Dec. 29th, 2003|11:49 am] |
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Weekend was good, pretty typical. Went out with friends. That's about it going on. Not a whole lot to report. |
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| Long post |
[Dec. 26th, 2003|10:22 pm] |
Christmas was good. Got some great presents and got to spend time with my family, which is the best part of it all. Tonight I'm tired so I'm staying in. I'll probably just watch some movies and eat a lot of left overs.
Here's my quiz. You've probably seen it on other journals. Enjoy.
01) What time are you starting this?: 8:25
02) Name?: Shanna
03) Date of birth?: That one day in that what year
04) Height?: 5'5
05) Eye color?: Brown but sometimes I wear colored contacts
06) Weight?: 120
07) Location?: San Diego
08) Where were you born?: Upland, CA
09) Have you ever failed a grade?: No
10) Do you have crush on someone?: Yes
11) Do you have a bf/gf?: No
12) If so, what is their name:
13) How long have you been together?:
14) What are you wearing right now?: You naughty thing...jeans and a pink sweater
15) Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?: No, my teachers have always been old and crusty
16) Are you a virgin?: No
17) How many people have you slept with? 3
18) Do you smoke?: No
19) Do you drink?: Yes
20) What are your favorite colors?: Blue and green
21) What is your favorite animal?: Dog
22) Do you have any birthmarks?: Yes, on my thigh
23) Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?: I was a punk kid so yeah
24) Who are your best friends?: I won't name them, but they know who they are.
25) Have you ever beat someone up?: Yep
26) Do you get online a lot?: Not really
27) Are you shy or outgoing?: Outgoing
28) Do you shower?: In what?
29) Do you hate school?: Not really
30) How easily do you trust people?: Not very
31) Have you ever lied to your bestfriends?: I'm sure at some point, but never a huge, heinous lie.
32) Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?:
33) Would you ever sky dive?: Sure would
34) Have you ever been out of state?: Yes
35) Have you ever been dumped?: Yes
36) Have you ever gotten high?: No
37) What's your favorite drink?: Sprite
38) Do you have a cell phone or pager?: Cell
39) Who do you look up to?: My parents and my friend Courtney for all she's done with herself and all she's been through.
40) Are you a role model?: I have no clue
41) What name brand do you wear the most?: Abercrombie, American Eagle, Gap
42) What do you have pierced?: My ears
43) What do you want pierced?: Nothing
44) Do you get annoyed easily?: Oh hell yes
45) Have you ever started a rumor?: Yes
46) Do you have any siblings?: Yes
47) Do you prefer boxers or briefs?: boxer briefs
48) Have you ever been played?: Yes
49) Have you ever played anyone?: Yeah I have, but don't do that sort of thing anymore
50) Do you get along with your parents?: Yeah we're pretty close. They're nuts.
51) How do you vent your anger?: I yell
52) Have you ever run away?: Nope
53) Have you ever been fired from a job?: No
54) Do you even have a job?: I'm not a freeloader
55) Do you daydream a lot?: Yes
56) What do you want a tattoo of?: Nothing
57) What do you have a tattoo of?: Nothing
58) What are your favorite flowers?: Tulips and roses. How generic
59) What does your ex bf/gf look like?: He's kind of short ofr a guy, like 5'9-5'10, runner's build, blonde hair, brown eyes. He was/is a cutie.
60) What does your most recent crush look like?: Don't have one
61) When was the last time you bitched someone out?: A few days ago
62) What was the last compliment you received?: My mom told me she likes my hair long....guess that's a compliment. haha
63) Is your bellybutton an innie or outie?: Innie. Outties are kind of icky.
64) What is your heritage?: French, Sweedish and German
65) What does your hair look like right now?: It's down and straight, past the shoulders. Nothing exciting.
66) When was your last real heartbreak?: My lifelong cat died about 5 months ago and that was crushing.
67) Would you ever date someone younger than you?: Not more than a year or two younger. I have a hard enough time dealing with immature guys my own age.
68) Would you ever date someone older than you?: Not a crusty old man or anything but yeah.
69) Would you rather give or receive oral sex?: Receive man come on. 70) Have you ever had an eating disorder?: No
71) Have you ever been skinnydipping?: A few times.
72) Do you look more like your mother or father?: Neither...maybe they found me in a trash can.
73) Do you ever cry to get your way?: When it comes to tickets, yes.
74) If you had to amputate one limb, what would it be?: My arm I guess.
75) Are you the romantic type?: Sometimes
76) Have you ever been chased by cops?: haha no
78) What do you like most about your body?: I really don't know. I like my hair I guess. Though that's not part of my body but it counts.
79) What do you like least about your body?: My ass
80) In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?: As long as they aren't assholes, I don't care.
90) What do the shoes you last wore look like?: Black boots
91) Do you ever wear shirts to show your belly?: Not really
92) What about cleavage?: I don't have a whole lot, but yeah sometimes
93) Is your best friend a virgin?: hahaha
94) What perfume do you wear?: Peaches and Cream....Body Remarks
95) What time is it now?: 8:41 |
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| Yet another update on the cheating friend |
[Dec. 22nd, 2003|11:56 am] |
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The guy confronted his gf. I guess it got pretty ugly. She tried to deny it and then when she realized that wasn't working she quickly switched over to blaming me for her selfish actions. Niiiiiiiiice. Luckily he's not a push over and saw right through her. He broke it off. He's better off. He's such a good guy and deserves better than that.
Of course now she's on a rampage and I'm first on her bitch out list. She left 26 messages on my cell over the weekend, none of which I bothered listening to. I don't want to hear her blame me for her own mistakes. I did what I needed to do. I would have felt so terrible and guilty had I not told him. She figured out I wasn't bothering with her messages so she wrote me this email, apparently trying to make me feel guilty about ratting her out. It's a little comical, thought I'd share.
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Shanna-
We have been friends for God knows how long and I can't believe you'd betray me like this. You stabbed me in the back. Now I see our years of friendship meant nothing to you and that makes me sad. I guess I wasted my time always being there for you when you needed me.
It wasn't your place to tell my business to Rick. That's my life not yours. Do you just want him for yourself? Are you trying to stomp and shit all over my happiness? What kind of a friend are you?
I wish you would have talked to me about this instead of going behind my back and taking it upon yourself to be the "honest" one and telling everyone's business. This hurts me deeply and I don't think I will ever be able to forgive you for what you've done to me. I hope you're happy with yourself.
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I think it's so funny that he's trying to turn this shit around on me. But if that makes her feel better, so be it. I'm done with her. |
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| Update on the cheating friend |
[Dec. 20th, 2003|11:49 am] |
After reading everyone's advice here, talking to some other friends and doing a lot of thinking I decided to tell my friend that his gf (another friend of mine) is cheating on him. It may have seemed like the easy solution to some people, but I think if you've ever been in my place, you know how difficult it actually is. But thanks to everyone that gave constructive and helpful advice.
Last night I called my friend and asked him to meet me for dinner so we could talk about something. When he got there I just laid it all out. I told him what I had seen, what his gf had said to me after I found out and I explained why I just didn't feel like I could hold this secret in. He was devestated to say the very least and I felt terrible for being the one to have to hurt him like that. He was happy I told him and we ended up hanging out the rest of the night because he didn't want to go home and face anyone else with this problem just yet.
He spent the night on the couch and went home early this morning. He said they have plans tonight and he's going to confront her about all of this then. He said he wouldn't tell her I was the one that told on her, but I told him to go ahead. I have nothing to hide. I don't mind her being mad at me. She's the one that fucked up, not me. |
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[Dec. 17th, 2003|12:24 pm] |
I've decided to give my friend an ultimatum. I'm going to tell her either she needs to tell her bf what's going on by tonight or I will. I want to give her the chance to be the bigger person here. Who knows if she'll take this golden oppurtunity or not. I hope so.
In completely non-related news. School is over for the semester, I have my loooooooong Christmas break and I'm stoked. A few of my friends and my bro and I are all thinking about taking a trip somewhere together over the break. Somewhere warm. Well, at least warmer than it is here. Can't complain too much. I do live in California for Christ sake. After reading some other journals and hearing about freezing temps and snow I'm pretty damn thankful. |
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| Pics |
[Dec. 16th, 2003|04:53 pm] |
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I'm in the process of putting together my photo album. There are some pics in there now and I'll be adding more over the next week or so, so feel free to check them out if you dare. It's nothing too exciting. |
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[Dec. 16th, 2003|01:12 pm] |
I still am trapped between a rock and a hard place. I have yet to figure out what to do about my friend and her cheating ways. I saw her boyfriend yesterday while I was doing some shopping and he was going on and on about the gorgeous necklace he bought her and all I wanted to do was shake him and tell him she's a cheating bitch and he should dump her. Why does life have to be so fucking complicated? Why can't people just be mature and faithful? I don't get it.
I never understood cheating. If your relationship is so fucked up or if you just need to get ass somewhere else, why not be an adult and just end the relationship? Why do you have to be so immensely selfish? Jesus people are stupid. |
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[Dec. 10th, 2003|10:17 pm] |
My mind is going crazy tonight. I found out something I would have never imagined and now I don't know what to do with this information.
A friend of mine, whome I have known for about 7 years, has been dating her boyfriend for a little over a year. They're very close and always seemed to have a perfect relationship. Over the course of their relationship we have all become good friends with her boyfriend. He's a great guy and we all love spending time with him. He treats her like a goddess and he fully accepts some of her past mistakes which have driven guys away in the past.
Today my friend left a message on my cell while I was in class asking me to swing by her place, let myself in (I have a key) and drop off some things she'd left at my place. I went home after class, picked up her things and headed to her apartment. I left myself in and took her clothes to her room instead of just leaving them out. I thought I was being a good friend, instead I caught her heavily making out with another guy. They were half naked and it was clear making out wasn't going to be the end of their bedroom romp. I was stunned. I had no clue what to do or say. She screamed, the guy ran out of the apartment and I just left.
She called me a few hours later and tried to explain but I am just too disappointed in her to listen. I don't know what to think. I have really lost a lot of respect for her. She was cheated on in her past relationship. It crushed her and she swore she would never do that to someone else. We often talk about how stupid cheating is. And then she cheats on her boyfriend.
Now I don't know what to do. I'm obviously not speaking to her, but as a friend to both her and her bf I feel obligated to tell him what is going on. He thinks she can do no wrong and I would hate to see him continue a relationship like that. |
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| My Journal is my safe haven |
[Dec. 9th, 2003|10:06 pm] |
My life is complicated. Who's isn't? Sue, I have issues. I have problems. There are days when I feel like shit, like I just want to crawl under my bed and never come out. There are other days when I'm so happy to be alive that no amount of raining piss can upset me. Anyone who says they don't have their manic moments is a total liar.
I hate the people that walk around seemingly happy all the time, pretending their lives are perfect and that nothing is ever wrong. Those are the people we should all be afraid of. Those are the people that are going to end up snapping and killing their family in the dead of night. People without issues scare the shit of me. I need a little chaos. It helps me remember I'm human.
So what's going on in my life? Well, school is a drag. Sometimes I wonder why I even bothered going to school. It's all papers and early morning and professors that would rather see you burn alive than cut you a break. I'll be glad when I'm finished, though my undergrad is just the beginning.
Work isn't too bad. I'm an office assistant for a small travel agency. It's a good job for daydreaming. I can live vicarously through other people's trips.
My social life isn't too shabby. Thanfully I have quite a few close friends that keep me grounded and sane. I'm not dating anyone. Well, at least not seriously. I don't want to settle down or get into anything major just yet. I'm only 20. Relationships can be so difficult and the simpler my life is, the better. |
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